Don't I care

Today there is a job which need me to climb out and leaving half of my body outside fifth floor without any safety protection. After everything was done one of my men ask me, how can i climb out without even thinking? Don't i fear that i will fall? I ask myself this also. The only answer came to me is that i already lost everything in my life so what's so big deal about dying. I had already dropped to rock bottom. There is only one way for me which is going up again. Win back everything in my life and this time round i will make sure i safe guard them.