Today i feel so bad

Today someone let me view her friendster. Makes me feel so bad. I dont even know that my son had grown so much. If only I can turn back the time. I keep asking myself why until now then i start to change? Isn't it too late? Why do I have to wait till I had lost everything then i know that what I had done is wrong, totally wrong? What can I do? Nothing but to let go. She wrote in her friendster that she love her life now. This is what i have to pay for my unfaithful. Only pray hard that she and my son is always happy without me around.